Reaching Out Once Again

Each time we are in the Phoenix area, we attempt to contact our daughter and grandson and each time we get the same outcome. We do not have any way to contact them, since they changed their phone number and moved, so we attempt to reach out in the only way we know how and that is through our blog. Each time we even mention either of them, there is always a response, usually too insulting and vulgar to give it our attention. Never really sure if it is our daughter or some other relative that comments but it is always the same. They say some mean and nasty things and then say they forgive me but for me to just get over it and move on and that we will never see our grandson again.

These continuous evil, vindictive comments sound more like my sister, who gets into a drunken rage and says and does some pretty nasty things. I never thought my daughter could be that way, but it has been almost 5 years now since she has allowed us to see our grandson, so maybe she has taken up with the dark side of the family.

If it is my daughter who is commenting, please allow us to see our grandson. We will be in the Phoenix area for tonight and we would love to be able to see and talk with him. Our phone number has not changed, please call us so we can visit with him for just one day. Please do not allow your anger to continue any longer, we are his grandparents and we love him very much and he needs to know that we are not dead as comments have been made that is what he is told. He needs to know that he is loved and thought about all the time and that we, like others in his life have not deserted him. A day does not go by that we do not think about him, we have thousands of post cards we want to share with him, we want to know how he is doing and who he is growing up to be. Please Chrissy, reach deep into your heart and allow us, who were a major part of his first 6 years to reach out to him and spend some time with him. All we ask for is to at least see him this once and then to be able to talk to him by phone, emails and/or letters. You do not have to be a part of our lives if you choose not to be, but please, please do not continue to let him be without us in his life.

I have begged for your forgiveness and will continue to do so until you remember the good times we have had in our lives and allow the not so great moments to disappear. That is what true forgiveness is. I have never been the best mom that you so much deserved but I did the best I could with what I knew. I would change so many things, especially the things I said to make you so angry and to make you walk away from the only mother you ever knew. Dad misses both of you too! Let’s allow 2011 to be the beginning of healing our hearts and allowing a moment in our past to dissolve finally. Let’s bury the hurtfulness and begin once again.