Shifting Focus…AGAIN!

It feels like whenever I stop dreaming and believing that we will someday have the things we desire that I get into a slump.

We do not ask for much, what we want is our Bigfoot 29G motorhome and a bank balance that does not consistently reach zero.  Otherwise our lives are perfect.

When I constantly dwell on the things we do not have instead of all the good things we do have I find myself feeling less of who I am, then there is always that big BUT…

But, Maggie is falling apart and each time we take a ride, we fear the worst.  Yes, she is a tough gal but even us tough ones have breaking points and we just hope she holds on a bit longer until we get this all figured out and I hope I hang in there too.

I have not been able to find any online work that is paying so that leaves me with loads of time to think…Being left alone with my thoughts is not always a good thing, plus this is the time of the year of anniversaries, not just the good ones of our wedding but the deaths and birthdays of loved ones we have lost which makes me sad and I do not like being sad.

There was a time many years ago that I was a very negative and sad person all the time but now I love being positive, upbeat, happy and very grateful to be alive every moment of every day.

Our new plan is to settle in somewhere for a few months with us both working so that we can think about our next step which has to be a new rig.  We do not want to carry a note but we also do not have $50,000 to purchase our next rig.  So, that being said we will have to go to Plan B…settle for something else since the Bigfoot 29G motorhomes are far and few between and they do not make them any longer. 

Dreams do not always come true and there are times that reality is so far from your dreams that it makes you wonder if dreaming is a good thing or a curse after all…see too much time on my hands to be thinking all the time.

The problem is…I am a dreamer…always have been and always need and want to be.  Without my dreams my life is just not worth living.  Not everyone always gets what they go after, even if they believe and work hard for it.  Others get it handed to them, then others work hard and get nothing.  Unfortunately the latter is me and always has been.

This blog should be titled whining since I am doing a lot of it, but I need to express myself or it will continue to fester inside and wreak havoc on my health. 

We have confirmation on work once this one ends…we will be staying out west in the Bryce Canyon area.  Yes, we spent the first year of this lifestyle in that area but our computer crashed at the end and we lost most if not all of our photos.  And, since it is such a picturesque area we decided to spend a summer at Ruby’s Inn working in the General Store as cashiers, both of us working 40+ hours.  We will be there from May until October and hopefully the weekly side trips to the marvelous surrounding areas will ease my hitch itch, if not I will just have to suck it up.

Our ideal way to live this lifestyle is to be on the move consistently but enough jobs are not coming to us to make it work financially for us so we have to go to the next plan.  Since we love this area, need photos, great work reviews and our interview with them went so well we decided that the Universe was telling us to take it, and we did.

Finally…after a 2 week delay we received our package from FedEx.  Now they are claiming that there was the first attempt where the driver claimed the address could not be located and SOMEONE changed the city to Ramona, which is 80 miles from our location.  Anyway they will be looking into who and why the change was made and apologized.  But what matters is we finally got our package and lesson learned we will not be sending our snail mail or any other package to us while we are still located here in the middle of the desert.