Our lives have never been easy…we struggle financially almost daily which in turn makes other things in our life a big struggle. We live with the “if only” all the time…IF ONLY we had enough money, we could…but we don’t…then we find ourselves spiraling in our vortex of despair.
We persevere and find ways to make it through one day at a time…one moment at a time. We pray…we stay positive…we do everything we can to keep our heads up so we don’t stay stuck in that black hole of despair. There are times we just want to give it up and relinquish the fact that our life sucks, but then what?
What is giving up? What does it mean to be done?
If we give up or are just done with it all, then we might as well just be dead. Death will come soon enough for us since age is no longer on our side, so wanting it sooner is not how we choose to play this game called Life.
We now realize we have to live our truth…we may not like it…we may see it at times as a bad hand that we were dealt, but it’s our truth. The more we look and want what others have, the more we get sadder, angrier and more envious.
So far 2019 has been tough but we do have a silver lining...we just have to be patient and be able to get there mid June. We will be picking up our truck and trailer and going on the road doing Band Events throughout the United States. This will be in addition to what we do in September with a week off in between. So as of June through November, we will be gainfully employed and making some great money and loving what we do.
Then our plan will be to downsize, looking for a Class B with great gas mileage so we can continue with this work and others that will allow us to continue traveling and make good money doing what we love. This is what keeps us sane…knowing that at any moment our lives can take that turn and have things go the way we plan…that is what we hold onto…otherwise…well, we don’t want to even go there.
We know that the only way to get what we truly want, we have to let go of the things that are not working for us right now.
We have decided to completely give up on Lt Blender work now and all future work. We have worked the winter months for the past few years and they have gone in an entirely different direction then we had hoped. When we first started with them we negotiated a decent deal, but since changing of management, things have gone from just okay to extremely bad. So it’s time to let go and move forward onto bigger and better choices.
We are also selling items we no longer need, letting it go is the easy part, selling it and making any money seems to be the hard part. We are getting hits, but as we learned from our estate sale, nobody is willing to pay what it’s worth. The good news is we sold enough to give us a little cushion to get to our next location where we have a 10 day job waiting for us next week that pays extremely well.
We feel the shift in our lives...Life is grand once again...We can breathe and enjoy the ride.