There Comes a Time in Life…

When you have to just be yourself and stop trying to be what you think you should be or what others might want you to be. You reach a certain age and you know that you have so much left to do and not enough time to do it. There comes a time when it all comes together and you realize that your life is almost over and you haven’t been the person you want to be, you haven’t done the things you want to do and you just know that you can do it and you can do it now because there is time left and that time is now. No more pretending…no more NOT saying what I feel and what I want…no more holding back.

Reflecting back and realizing that no matter what happened throughout my life, I made it through, it may not have been pretty, it may not have been the way I wanted it to go, but I made it through. Through to the other side of the pain, through to tasting the sweetness of life because after all the alternative was to give up and I never could. There were plenty of times that I wanted to just give up, but then what? If I ever were to have given up, my life would have been over and I would have missed out on all these wonderful years of my life, and that would have been a tragedy.

Even though my life does not even closely resemble what I had pictured, it has been an outstanding life. I have done it all…maybe not in the ways I would have chosen to do it, but in the ways it was to be lived. I have loved deeply…I have lost tremendously…I have felt enormous joy…I have ached with so much pain…I have given so much…I have taken a lot…I have seen things that nobody should see…I have witnessed miracles…I have spoken words that I wish I could take back…I have not said things that I wish I did…I have enjoyed the finer things in life…I have lived in poverty…

Now is the time where there is no more excuses. I have reached retirement age and my time is limited. To be truthful, I never thought I would have made it this far, but I have and now is the time to do and be all that I have ever dreamed I could or wanted to do. There are not many tomorrows left, there is only today and I will begin living each day, each moment as if it might be my last. I will love deeper…say what I need to say…do what I want to do…and live my life to the fullest with each breath I take.

No more sugar coating…no more pretending…no more pity parties…life is definitely too short to waste another minute. It’s time to be all that I have ever imagined my life could be and it begins now.